Tuesday, November 29, 2011

new seasons market is not friendly; new seasons market totally sucks

*this is the story of kim and tim* (part two cont...)



*this is the story of kim and tim* part one: excuse me while i break my own heart
published on september 13, 2011

*this is the story of kim and tim* (part one and part two of) part two: i am the platypus in a walled city
published on october 13, 2011


*this is the story of kim and tim* part three: god may forgive you; but i won't
(NEW SEASONS MARKET SUCKS CONT.)
published on january 23, 2012

^ THIS IS PROBABLY THE MOST CONCISE YET COMPLETE SUMMARY THUS FAR ^

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...this is a work in progress...
this segment has been updated a little as of 12/09-10-11/2011
see editor's note, for the greater part of any revisions taking place

new seasons market is not friendly; new seasons market totally sucks
*this is the story of kim and tim*
...part two continued...
(part three of part two)






"hi. my name is kristin and i would like to tell you how much
NEW SEASONS MARKET TOTALLY SUCKS!" 
this picture taken, and added here, 02/03/12









hi. my name is kimberly kristin angelique.

today is february 20 2013: i finally am reconstructing part one and all parts of part two
like i said (on 3/8/12)  i'd eventually do. gee, sorry it took me so long...
but "part three" was what i always aimed for - all anyone really needs to know (for the record)
but - i was only able to compose part 3 in the way i did - after writing out part 1 and all the parts that became part 2...

i knew i'd follow up some day; i just couldn't be sure when.
(thank you for your patience to whomever it might concern...)

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Maybe someday I will write a blog about all the other shit going down in my life...
and the part it all plays in how proud I am for seeing this through even at a time like this…
.
..A promise is a promise and I keep my promises...

(o: Come hell or high-water, I try my best :o)


To continue my story from where I left off at “part two of part two”:
Beginning at that sorrowful moment when Tim threw me under the bus by agreeing that it was in his best interest to have me trespassed from New Seasons Market where he worked – under the deceptive presumption that it was because I was causing problems for him – rather than the truth of the matter, which is that he had lied to his girlfriend about the extent of his friendship with me and to his employers about the nature of his friendship with me – and his subsequent fear that if I should return to the store – that the truth was certain to be told…
I have acknowledged that Tim likely additionally made that decision under pressure as both his girlfriend and manager stood before him saying that if what he was telling him was true then this was the best decision for him to make…
I have stated numerous times that I can understand why Tim perhaps felt the need to lie, to continue to lie, to cover for his lies and that he presumably submitted to this trespassing decision under the duress of not wanting his lies to be exposed.
I have also stated that I can even forgive Tim – to an extent and up to a certain point – for having made such a fucked-up and purely self-serving choice. Yet I stand by my consistent vow that I shall not be complicit to letting myself be totally fucked over by Tim doing this…
I want to make certain that this is perfectly clear (to the best of my ability):
I DID NOT KNOW WHAT TIM HAD SPECIFICALLY LIED ABOUT NOR JUST HOW EXTENSIVE HIS LIES WERE AT THE TIME OF THIS INCIDENT.
…While it became more and more – clear to me from the e-mails Tim and I traded following this incident which took place on May 19, 2011:
I ALSO DID NOT KNOW THE EXTENT OF TIM’S DECEPTION WHEN I MET WITH THE CUSTOMER ADVOCATE AND UPPER MANAGEMENT REPRESENTATIVE AT NEW SEASONS MARKET CORPORATE HEADQUARTERS!
This indisputable fact is crucially important for many reasons – all of which I may or may not come to address – but the relevance of this to me at this particular moment in my narrative – is that AT FIRST I really was just focused on how gravely unfair it felt to me to be trespassed by this business which had been taking my money for years, how hurtful it was that all of the employees there whom I had been so friendly with would not know the truth about what had happened – that I had done nothing wrong and that I was being trespassed just so Tim could please his girlfriend who was being such a fucking selfish bitch (not to mention that she had injured me with her accusations, harassment, disparaging remarks and slander…) and though I failed to see that Tim had been so incredibly untruthful about our friendship for sometime – and setting me up in ways that still are heartbreaking for me to assimilate – I immediately sensed that he had been somewhat untruthful about our friendship and about me in general…
Keeping in mind that at the time of the incident I obviously had yet to have any meeting at the corporate headquarters regarding that incident – and that the manager on duty at that time: Miguel Rosas-Baker (whom I came to have the displeasure of dealing with thereafter) has to this day never informed me as to what the allegations against me actually were!
At the time of this incident I only knew that Tim’s girlfriend had freaked out about seeing me and Tim in whatever compromising position it was that she could not deal with (all we were doing that night was talking as friends*) and that she had blown up at me and then about me to Tim – and that I was being made a scapegoat as a result…

[* ...and, as I previously mentioned, Tim had just suddenly frozen up and altered his tone; that's when I turned around and saw her walking towards us; and that's when I walked away from him...]
Therefore: Yes, at first I did seek to make the truth known – and to bring about fairness and justice where my injuries were concerned – and at that time I was not yet blaming New Seasons Market for upholding Tim and/or Miguel’s dishonesty and overreaction… as they had yet to uphold these actions and the decision to trespass me!
I am poor – and I did refuse to pay the inflated prices on most of the merchandise offered at this store – but being a smart shopper – I had navigated this business and knew what the standard price was and/or what was actually a bargain – or at least a reasonable price – in some cases it was the only convenient location to purchase certain items…
…IT WAS MY NEIGHBORHOOD STORE AND HAD BEEN FOR MANY YEARS…
…While I had just a month earlier moved away from that neighborhood (out of an unrelated necessity) and was henceforth visiting that particular (Seven Corners) location less frequently as a result – I did still have a variety of reasons for returning to that general neighborhood and would have appreciated the opportunity to shop there if I chose to do so – but even those facts – while totally valid – were not the point…
THE POINT IS THAT THIS WAS CORRUPT AND FUCKED-UP!
I had been victimized, slandered and punished for something for which I was not responsible!
Keeping in mind that at one point – out of love for my friend: Tim – I had decided to sacrifice my own best interests for what I perceived as Tim’s sake (even as it became obvious that he had been secretly fucking me over for some time) – and I had told Tim – in writing (in an e-mail) – and had told Miguel (by calling him at the store) that while none of my feelings about any of this had changed and I still stood by all of my objections and initial grievances – FOR TIM’S SAKE – I would walk away and they could have it their way (even though it made them totally fucked-up assholes for wanting to have it their way in that way)…
…My decision to walk away from being fucked over – only changed after the possibly fated, yet chance meeting – with Tim’s girlfriend on a Tri Met bus (on the morning of my birthday: June 10) – when Jennifer Natoli further proved just how conniving and seriously evil she actually was.
Furthermore – as I played back and reviewed that encounter in my mind – I began to see things in a whole new light… When I paired that dialogue with the bizarre and confusing and non-sensible e-mails I had been receiving from Tim from May through June: I then saw things in an even clearer light…
Although it was a devastating enlightenment to undergo – I finally concluded that Tim’s deception extended farther than I had presupposed…
It was this anguish from which I was reeling – when after two weeks of careful deliberation – I chose to contact a New Seasons Market representative who was not actually employed at that store but rather their Store Support offices – hoping that such a person could be fair and impartial and objective…
I admit that I was a CHUMP to believe the hype that New Seasons Market was progressive or different from any other profiteering corporation – and I was especially gullible to believe that the term Customer Advocate actually equaled a person who would advocate for me as a customer.
Learning what – LOGOING FRAUDS – New Seasons Market is – has mostly been in hindsight…
…Having hopefully explained this – without expounding on it any further as I wish to return to my former narrative so I can finally complete it (which I will follow with both a celebration party and dancing in the streets) – please let it be known – that I admit – that for years I was a sucker for thinking that this store was authentically progressive let alone living up to their motto as “The friendliest store in town”…
…It’s terribly embarrassing for me to make this confession (I have already made it before of course). As I have stated at many times and various junctures since this whole ordeal began:


I would rather be embarrassed by the truth than humiliated by a lie.
(I wrote that)

My only intention for arranging my meeting at the Corporate Offices of New Seasons Market on June 23, 2011 (which began with my June 21 phone call there) – was to tell the truth about the ridiculous trespassing incident – and I obviously expected – that in setting the record straight – both an apology and a reversal of that offensive decision to trespass me would be forthcoming…
When I left that meeting: I had good reason to have such faith in New Seasons Market to make that apology and to reverse that fucked-up decision; as the last thing stated to me by the representatives with whom I met was:
“We will talk to Miguel and see what can be done to return you to being a loyal and trusted customer!”
My meeting at the corporate office took place on a Thursday – the following Monday (June 27, 2011) I received this following e-mail from the mock customer advocate whom I had gullibly placed my faith in:



Dear Kristen,
I want to thank you for coming to our Store Support offices to share the details of your difficult, genuinely painful experience at our Seven Corners store. It showed a high degree of trust in Claudia and myself – belief that we would truly hear you.
Indeed, trust is at the very core of this dilemma. Therefore, I feel confident in proposing a clean, simple resolution to a very confusing sequence of events. You deserve a fresh start devoid of uncertainty and mistrust.
I envision that fresh start including a neighborhood store which is not a part of New Seasons Market. I am concerned that returning to Seven Corners (or any of our other stores) would entail continued feelings of discomfort – the sense that you might have to prove your innocence, so to speak. To the contrary, it would be to your advantage to shop or enjoy a meal in an environment where there are no unpleasant distractions. This would allow you to redirect your abundant energies toward your art, interest in working with children, and overall happiness which is of prime importance.
In keeping with this call for a fresh start, we support Miguel’s decision to permanently preclude you from visiting our stores. And, since we are obligated by store policy to call authorities if this request is not honored, we must remind you of this consequence for returning to any of our locations.
I’m very grateful that you voiced your need for clarity so that we could work together toward a positive, concise resolution. Again, thank you for your trust.
Warmly,
Mary Alison

Mary Alison Leatart
Customer Advocate
New Seasons Market



Wow; right?
Given that this is still the only response I have yet to receive from New Seasons Market and it says nothing about what I have been accused of or what this decision was being based on (remember, Miguel’s reply to my asking him “Why?” was that they didn’t actually need any reason!) – I still do not specifically know what the alleged grievance against me was!
All I still knew at that time was that: Tim must have lied to his girlfriend – and to back up those lies he had also lied to his work – and that his girlfriend had verbally assaulted me and physically threatened me, then she lied about me, and blamed that entire confrontation on me, and accused me of the behaviors actually belonging to her…
…Of course this reply from New Seasons Market to all of that was inconceivable to me…
My first reaction was to call Mary Alison and ask her what in the world had happened for her to write me such a response – she did not give me any answers at all – rather she told me that this was coming from the top and she was simply doing her job and passing this decision on to me…
For the record – this was not the same side of the woman I had previously met with or spoken to:
I could see right then that I had been punk’d by New Seasons Market.
However, I was still a while off – from learning to what extent – and for how many years – this had been going on (New Seasons Market masking the truth that they are JERKS while – secretly-capitalistically – trumpeting themselves as “The friendliest store in town”)…
Following my phone call to Mary Alison, I proceeded upstairs to the library’s computers and wrote out a reply to Mary Alison: I did not express my contempt nor make any disparaging remarks – rather I stated as concisely and with as much clarity as was possible for me under the circumstances – a summary regarding the incident on May 19 and why I felt their decision to trespass me was a wrong choice…

...I expressed both my dismay and confusion over that decision being extended to include all of their stores… While it was right there in writing – the concern that I might feel the need to prove my innocence – it did not completely register that this was their primary concern: that I might feel compelled to tell the truth to people!
WTF?!
Following my sending that e-mail in reply – and seeing the next day that there had been no response to it – I called Mary Alison once again to confirm that she had received my e-mail. Mary Alison gave me her confirmation; without clueing me in to what had actually been said about me by anyone else. She stated that this was a case of he said/she said – and that I was being troublesome (that is exactly what you fucking said Mary Alison but in case I misunderstood you and you said that this was troubling – what is the fucking difference – really?) – and that she did not have any more time for me, but that she would pass my e-mail on to someone more appropriate or whatever to handle the situation…
…Well, that was 5 months ago – and I have still never received any reply at all, let alone any apology – and yes I do stand by the belief that I am still owed an apology from many people on their end at this point…
Outraged: I proceeded from that final phone call to Mary Alison by once again – heading upstairs to the library’s computers – and feeling utter disbelief and total confusion over the way this was playing out – I instinctively googled for complaints against New Seasons Market…
[On this same day – I also searched for contact information regarding legal advice as to my rights in a situation such as this: Upon referral to the ACLU and three different law firms via the Oregon Bar Association – I had concluded that without the financial means to hire a lawyer and file a civil suit for slander – that my best option was to stage a formal protest…]
…A lot of shit showed up very fast in that search for complaints against New Seasons Market, but I began at the top and at that time that link led me to the Portland Indy Media website. I honestly forget what the exact destination at that site on that day which I was led to was – but it was obvious to me (from my Internet search) that I was not the first person to feel fucked over by this particular business…
Without any plan of action whatsoever – let alone any manifesto – I took the first and most obvious recourse I could think of in that moment and open published Mary Alison’s e-mail to me – I gave my article the title of: New Seasons is Not Friendly…
It seemed to me that any member of the local community with even half of their brain working – would conclude from that e-mail which had been so meticulously crafted for both dismissing and silencing me – that New Seasons Market were a bunch of fucking posers!
…As much as I resented that reply from Mary Alison on behalf of her corporate pimps – it was so audacious and seething of insincerity; it was practically a gift for demonstrating and showing my just cause for feeling so fucked-over by New Seasons Market.
What could be more humiliating for this PRETENTIOUS business than those carefully chosen words written to me in that format? Furthermore – because it was published using their very own words – I could not be accused of making this shit up!
Being a newcomer at that time to the Portland Indy Media website and having never published an article there before – and feeling totally appalled in that moment – I rushed things a bit without first learning the ropes of their formatting technology etc…

Since it was only after I had published that sole e-mail – as damaging as it ought to be to their reputation (and while my name was misspelled and contained only my first name; I was being forthcoming and published this article using my true identity) – that I began to feel some concern that without providing any background to the trespassing incident – that readers might actually misconstrue the situation; assume that I had actually done something wrong!
I had done nothing wrong!
NOTHING!
Backing up to being new to that site – and not knowing the best way to publish any follow-up (you can add to your article but I wasn’t seeing that option yet) – I published a second article… Only this time I included both Mary Alison’s e-mail and my reply to hers…
Publication of my own e-mail reply is not something I actually regret in itself – it was totally truthful and for the most part it did pertain entirely to the incident; but what I hadn’t planned on, is the commentary that would follow in the discussion section, where a variety of people would see fit to chastise me for posting a personal grievance at a political site (the personal is political my friends… but that’s practically ancient history now)…
…And as simultaneously amusing and enraging as I found Tim’s girlfriend’s pseudonymous posts to be – please let it be known that it is this sort of prompting and desperate perseverance that led to nearly* every personal detail of my more than year-long friendship with Tim becoming a public record on the Internet – and one of the many reasons why I felt (and still feel) that it is important for me to tell my full side of the story…
An effort I am repeating now – even more thoroughly and in a safe zone – free from unwarranted and unsolicited commentary by the various fucking trolls who were attacking me at that site…
* I say nearly because believe it or not – at least unless or until this blog becomes a novel – so far I have kept some of the precious moments of my friendship with Tim private between us… It sincerely bums me out to have what was so special between us being rendered in this fashion; but I did not create this mess in its current state – I am merely trying to be totally truthful and forthcoming as I narrate my side of it for my own defense – which remains as important to me as ever…
Some people at that site actually were decent and fair – some were even encouraging and supportive – one person thanked me!
Some greatly appreciated folks actually gave me important information which both complemented and expanded my protest against the logoing and manipulative frauds which New Seasons Market have unquestionably proved to be (in my well-informed opinion)…
…Others however behaved like fucking jerks – and trust me (you must get this by now) if you want me to back off or shut up about something – don’t tell me to do that – I do not take orders from anyone and it will only make me more determined to plead my case and speak the truth!
I made that disclaimer and directly aimed it at these people and Tim’s girlfriend in particular – that if you want me to stop revealing so much personal information about this situation then quit forcing my hand to do just that!

I knew from her first post – that “Millie” – was in fact Tim’s girlfriend impostering herself (and I don’t doubt that she used several names, but Millie was among the first and has been the most recurring)…
Oh yeah – for clarity I guess I should point out that as soon as I published Mary Alison’s e-mail – I mass produced it and distributed it to New Seasons Market’s customers, vehicle windshields etc – and the surrounding neighborhood of the Seven Corners store.
I have an incredible memory (just ask Tim!) and I recall every single person with whom I spoke to personally – I know for a fact that Millie is not someone I spoke to in this regard (as she defensively asserted) – that’s the first point I’d like to make – the second point is that it was so fucking obvious from what she was saying and how she was saying it that this was Tim’s girlfriend! It ought to be obvious to everyone; it is obvious to me…

Let’s examine this pair of ridiculously funny, fucking stupid and outrageous (from my point of view) posts for example (and please make note of the CONTRADICTIONS!):
Excerpt from a post by Millie on June 30, 2011:

I'm sorry but you were stalking Tim. You didn't mention ANY events that occurred before the May 19 incident. The trouble had been boiling and brewing long before May 19.

...And then this is one she wrote on July 11, 2011, following an anonymous poster who had outed her (on July 7) as Jennifer Natoli and Tim's girlfriend:

Definitely not affiliated with anyone in this situation. In fact, the only way I even knew any of this was when I was stopped by none other than Kristin outside of New Seasons, as she tried to tell me why I shouldn't shop at "unfriendly" New Seasons. I came home and looked here to investigate before believing anything blindly. BTW honey, your clothes aren't working for you, nor is your hair. You looked like a person begging for money! I only know the name TIM because Kristin posted it and I only know the details because...SHE POSTED EVERYTHING.


L O L


Up until that post naming her had appeared…
...I thought I’d be all on my own in stating the obvious that this was actually Tim’s girlfriend – also, I still didn’t know her name!

[FYI: Everything I just stated has since been verified.]
What a stroke of luck that was! God is on my side: because the truth is on my side. I’m just saying…

But it was right after I saw that post, when in a confrontation with and instigated by Tim outside the Seven Corners store (when I was distributing more leaflets on day 11 of my protest, July 9) – that I spoke his girlfriend’s name to Tim and he did not deny it – so I took that as a confirmation also… Whether or not Tim’s girlfriend’s real name is Jennifer Natoli – she goes by this name and SHE ADMITTED THAT SHE WAS MILLIE (whether she meant to or not) on July 26 – the day of what I suppose you might call the final showdown between the three of us (and another amazing coincidence in which the probable existence of God cannot be overstated…); the day Tim and his girlfriend were leaving for Canada or Boston (because that is where they ended up and where Tim - without her - still is as of February 2013)...

I might tell the rest of that story or I might not... time will tell.

Dear Reader: Decide whatever you want to about that – I personally know this is the truth for certain now – but I instinctively knew it all along... (*!)
I cannot guarantee that this thread which this URL links to – will remain in place forever (as I have stated the very first thread was eventually removed in its entirety) – and I would also like to point out that “Millie” had made numerous inflammatory and vicious posts in between the two posts which I pasted above – at both threads – remarks which have since been taken down (yay and ha ha)… But as of this moment – you can see this whole thread – as it remains at this time – for yourself, by going here:
…Hell yeah, I find all of this embarrassing – but perhaps you can hopefully see why I have been compelled to tell my entire side of the story – and why I have chosen to do this in safety from slanderous comments, at my blog…
While it is probably the least of my worries in this chaotic situation – please note that once you publish anything at the Portland Indy Media site – you can’t revise it or edit it or even delete it – the administrators can delete stuff, but not the authors themselves – and one of my posts in particular got totally fucked up somehow and duplicates itself midway… As a perfectionist (and an editor) it really bothers me; but there’s nothing that I can do about it.
If you do in fact visit this link and read through all that shit there – perhaps you will also be kind enough to note the final posts which include someone named Mark Eggen, who seems to be quite familiar with Tim and his out-for-blood girlfriend – and especially where Jennifer (Still calling herself Millie: LOL) TRIES BUT FAILS to have the last and consistently DISHONEST word on this whole subject – and how my soon-after response to that is a link to this blog which I wrote out of exasperation in reaction to her continued assassination of my character…

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*! NEW EDITOR'S NOTE: 2/25/13 - it's a real trip to read this WHOLE post - but esp. the next part - knowing what I know now; even more now than then... but I guess for posterity - I'll keep this in place. I'm happy to say that all the portland mercury posts have at least had the comments closed (and it would appear that other miscellanoeous posts at other websites have too) and before they did that I was giventhe privilege of having the final truthful say at those posts... so once that finally happened - I felt a lot less stressed out and hella vindicated - so - LOTS BETTER - than i used to feel when people were getting away with saying mean things that were also untrue things...  as for the best new information that i have: whatever reasons are behind Tim and his former girlfriend's break-up - just yay for it - because as much as I am still really saddened by Tim for his fucking me up - I couldn't help always feeling so sad for his being in a relationship with someone as horrible as Jennifer who - whether he accepted it or not - was the ultimate reason for both him and me getting fucked over the way we initially did... anyhow: i guess i'll still keep this next segment in place; for now at least...


*! EDITOR'S NOTE: w o w... today is december 09, 2011; i just received a very amusing e-mail this very morning from "millie" - she made a special gmail account and everything - and her purpose for writing is to convince me she is not jennifer...

Millicent Smith millievanillie968@gmail.com sent Fri, Dec 9, 2011 11:12 am

my only surprise is that she waited this long, seriously (o:

millie would like me to know that she is merely some randomly crazy person with nothing better to do with her life than become obsessed with a story she has nothing to do with, which is being told by and/or about people she doesn't even know and has no involvement with whatsoever (wtfdytyak?) ...that she happened to find my blog "quite by accident" and that (even though she doesn't know me: hey, guess what, neither does jennifer!) she worries more than ever for my sanity for my believing that, she is tim's girlfriend, is an absolute truth...

although millie is certain i will repost her e-mail as further proof that she is tim's girlfriend: she doesn't really care:

I'm sure you will post this on your blog and try to "prove" that this is Tim's GF somehow but I don't care.


millie simply just wants me to know that i am mistaken...

(o: this day started out GREAT - it really did! i love this day! - and it just got so much better :o)

ok, just to be thorough - let it be known that even though tim's girlfriend confessed to me - in person on july 26 - that she was millie (whether she had intended to do that or not; and like i said: i already thought so!) -- today i received a special e-mail from a ranting lunatic who wants me to NOT believe that millie is jennifer -- and for my part, just to be totally forthcoming: i am passing this message along to anyone who fucking cares if it is true or not.

this is what i know:

1. jennifer admitted that she is millie; jennifer did not deny that she is millie when i called her out on it (7/26/11)

2. millie (this could obviously be anyone pretending to be millie, but let's assume it's the original imposter millie) at this late date (12/09/11), following an obviously jennifer-inspired post on 9/02/11, has written me an e-mail in which she both denies that she is related to this situation in any way or even knows any of us; that she forgot all about her posts at the p.i.m. site, found my blog by accident only, read all 100+ pages of it; and that the only point she has to make now, is the same shit she was spewing before - but with an exaggerated effort to deflect suspicion from her being jennifer by saying she is someone else who doesn't know me, yet has all these jennifer-like points to restate once again...

i know i already just said this, let me repeat it: jennifer didn't know me either - we had never been introduced or spoken to each other ever ever ever before she proceeded to stage this whole scene (premeditated for god knows how long and performed on may 19) for which she carelessly cast me in the starring role! so your argument - even if it weren't so obviously otherwise disputable - is pretty pointless! what you allude to being irrational is in fact quintessentially jennifer-like behavior!

3. the BIGGEST giveaway (before jennifer's actual confession) is that to believe that millie is not jennifer is to believe that jennifer had the self-restraint to never post anything or jump in on the internet conversation!

given that jennifer started this whole fucking situation, blew it up to its current proportions, has verbally harassed me and physically threatened me (among other grievances i hold against her) the three times she confronted me in person (5/19, 6/10, 7/01) and the one time i confronted her (7/26) when she actually attacked me and tried to choke me:

i strongly disbelieve that self-restraint is something which jennifer is capable of ...!...

4. i already was honest and forthright enough to make the earlier disclaimer that all of this (these p.i.m. posts) is at best circumstantial evidence and therefore i can only speculate -- and that, no: i can't by this speculation alone prove that millie is jennifer -- which is why i made that statement!

it is because i am being so honest and attempting to be ever so careful to separate fact from opinion: that i wrote that disclaimer!

... i stated what i know for sure and why i believe it - and (see dear reader above) advised any reader of this blog to think whatever they want to about that (my speculations etc)...AND ANYTHING ELSE FOR THAT MATTER!

...i know what i know; and i surmise that it is way too much of a fucking long shot to believe that jennifer could keep silent through all of this (and this e-mail only increases the strength of my convictions); and while it is very helpful to me to have all these speculative points on my side; they are after all, rather moot points, given that:

jennifer admitted to me that she is millie!

...ETC AND SO ON...


M/J, IS ALSO MISSING THE ULTIMATE POINT: this distinction really makes absolutely no difference to any of the events leading up to may 19, 2011; nor those leading up to june 21, 23, 27, 28 or 29, july 9, 16, 26...2011; nor this blog; past, present and - time will tell - future...

...even if me believing that millie is tim's girlfriend --

(o: and that his girlfriend's name is jennifer natoli: i haven't finished that story yet as i chose to be chronological in that particular regard - but of course millie not really being jennifer after all - even though jennifer admits she is millie - "really millie" couldn't know that right, lol :o)

-- even if this is somehow, some incredibly coincidentally bizarre misunderstanding involving the same verbal phrases as jennifer herself has delivered to me personally ETC ETC ETC...

...it would furthermore suggest that millie - who wants to convince me that until i handed her a flyer that she knew nothing about anything - bears an uncanny resemblance to the speech patterns of tim's girlfriend (who confessed she is millie)!


...and once more with special emphasis: i remember every conversation and persons; the order in which they occurred; i know what my flyer said and i know in what exact order information was posted and appeared at BOTH original threads (including the proximity of their timing like millie was some vulture waiting for my next post; ready to strike - etc - and i have them for my specific reference because i printed them all out! and copied them in documents attached to e-mails! etc.)...

...how weird is it that some anonymous person at that same p.i.m. site named her as jennifer natoli before i actually even knew (or sought to confirm) tim's girlfriend's name!

...and what an even stranger coincidence that neither tim, nor anyone else, including tim's girlfriend (who let it slip that she had been posting slanderous remarks about me under the name of millie at the p.i.m. site) has ever denied that tim's girlfriend's name is jennifer natoli!
[2013 update: jennifer natoli was tim's girlfriend at that time; apparently she isn't any longer (o: yay for that :o)...]


wow what an AMAZING coincidence!

WTFDYTYAK? i ask again...


...while i assume that there are other jennifer natolis in the world as well - at least one of them shared an apartment in portland oregon with tim shipp in 2011! but whatever...

the actual true identities of anyone who posted comments about this story, after this story already had happened, is irrelevant for the most part!

IT DOESN'T CHANGE THE STORY I AM TELLING IN MY BLOG AT ALL

...not one iota! nothing anyone ever says in rebuttal etc - changes my story at all - why is that? it is because i have chosen to always tell the truth and to be totally forthcoming therefore my story has been consistent at all times and shall continue to be.

on my honor.

millie (wtf): i saved a hardcopy of everything before it was taken down by the administrators @ the p.i.m. site (because of the violent nature of your posts) therefore i so hope you don't separately exist -- (and that you don't actually have a family that depends on your not being criminally insane...) -- how seriously desperate would this make you be of the need for getting and living your own life if you have no relation to any of this and/or any of us?

...but most importantly -- @ your june 30 post where you say what ONLY JENNIFER had said to me up to that point and which at that time, prior to your post, existed nowhere in writing -- if you want to pretend you aren't someone specifically; you might want a better cover than claiming that you are someone who doesn't know any of us (or anything about what i was being accused of by jennifer)...

...whom do you fucking think you can convince - and why would you want to?

...and seriously, millie, how could you "quite by accident" happen upon my blog, especially if it's after you'd forgotten about the posts you made at p.i.m.? you contradict yourself in your e-mail itself!

"I had honestly forgotten about your story and the comments I made on the PDX indy site. I recently came across your blog, quite by accident and felt the need to email you."

...i won't say that you completely lack imagination, but rather that it is highly ineffective!

...i have already admitted that this is all rather embarrassing for me; but i'd rather be someone who feels embarrassed - than someone who lets fucking crazy bitches like you - get away with going around and bullying others (certainly not without calling them out on it)...

THIS IS WHAT I DO

furthermore: your e-mail not only even more so contradicts your first post (which i shared above), it even in parts contradicts the other example i provided along with the first one... and come on - "millie" - just look at your last p.i.m. post on september 2, 2011:

"There's a line you crossed and have continued to cross...You are a crazy stalker. I'm sorry but it's true. The New Seasons incident would not have happened had the backstory not been there. Any other NORMAL customer would not have been trespassed. You did this to yourself, end of story."

you didn't even try to hide your identity there! oops!

...SUCKS TO BE YOU...

...most importantly for me - and an added advantage to my referring to your newest feeble attempt - is that whomever you pretend to be, or protest that you aren't - your true identity does not negate the content of your opinions and accusations - and as i first stated in part one of my blog: it is because of ALL THE CREEPS (names withheld or changed or not) involved in this story at any given time - that i am so especially compelled to write out my defense in full; thank you (i say so sarcastically) for strengthening my resolve! and fuck you a lot (i say most sincerely) for a lot of reasons including your being such a COWARD...


...if it's not obvious - just to humor the (still) self-unidentified person* who sent me this preposterous e-mail, let me also say this: even if millie and jennifer are miraculously two totally different (yet likeminded and otherwise identical freaks) - i'd want you to know that YOU BOTH TOTALLY SUCK! you'd make great best buddies!

[* what is your real name then? authenticate who you really are; if you want to prove who you say you aren't. show yourself in person... what's your phone number? where do you live and/or work? a made-up faked e-mail address for a made-up faked name: proves nothing (you idiot); except for what a coward you are. but you may wish to keep in mind that whatever creative attempts you might potentially make; they will never come to bear any relevance upon these incidents which were inflicted upon me nor the totally fucked-up behavior by jennifer, certainly nothing which has transpired between tim and i; and especially not the irrefutable corruption displayed by new seasons market. it won't rewrite this blog for fucking sure. please get that straight before you waste any more effort trying to bullshit me. don't assume you will always get a response from me, either. i have no intention of writing you back...]

if it wasn't for jennifer admitting that she was millie (and me fully realizing she does not appear to have limited herself to only this one pseudonym); there is one other possible person i'd not put it past to go to such desperate lengths to spread lies etc -- and that is tim -- (because why would i put anything past him now; knowing what he has done out in the open!)... while that would be poetic justice in its own right (since it would have totally backfired on tim like all of his other lies have) -- it still wouldn't adequately explain: jennifer's facial expression when she let it slip that she was millie...

(obviously both jennifer and tim could be posting as millie)

...definitely jennifer and millie have both said the very same things in the very same ways to me on multiple occasions. jennifer also might have not meant to make it so obvious to me that she was familiar with MY POSTS... before i caught her in a full confession, she had already come pretty close just by acknowledging things i had written at portland indy media...things which millie had either prompted, responded to, etc...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

...no matter how far i let my imagination wander amongst the possibilities; it always come back to this: no fucking way can i believe that jennifer has enough self-control not to have posted something in an effort to verbally attack me and to dishonestly place the blame for our altercation on me...

...have i gotten to the part of the story where jennifer also confessed to plastering messages -- just like millie's posts (but even worse in my opinion) -- on my own posted protest flyers circling her apartment building block? (only those ones!) -- which i have witnesses for -- as well as the flyers which i removed following her doing this? ...and have since saved for my cumulative evidence in support of what a bitch jennifer is? i don't think i have yet...

back to "millie": given that i first distributed -- only the published e-mail from mary alison beginning june 29 -- and i recall each personal contact...

...millie's first post appeared on june 30; accusing me of "not mentioning ANY of the events prior to the May 19 incident" ... "The trouble had been boiling and brewing long before May 19."

...that is to say that millie accused me of OMITTING "the backstory" (sic: also see her 9/02/11 post) leading up to the may 19 incident - since as you suggest i didn't provide that information yet @ p.i.m.: how did you know to think that, miss total stranger to us all? WHY would a total stranger to us all EVEN FUCKING CARE? you cared on an almost hourly basis at some times (don't forget BOTH original threads; i sure haven't)...

...yeah, i am going to continue to go with my gut on this one... yet as i have previously stated, it doesn't change anything i've written (or perceived) thus far - and i am mainly mentioning it now because i am attempting to cover all the bases...in the BIG picture - "millie" - is rather insignificant to me...

therefore, let it be known:

...that this e-mail makes you look guiltier (and jennifer's own confession - purposeful or not - says it all!) - yeah - wait, what is it you hope to exactly accomplish again by writing me this e-mail?

...any how: ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha...

just when i thought this day couldn't get any better; it did!

actual confirmation that millie herself has indeed read my blog; fuck yeah!!!

(o:

* * * * * * * * *


I believe that in one place or another – throughout this blog – the full story of my ordeal from the trespassing incident has been fully illustrated (o: and then some :o) – and I want to be done with this as soon as possible! Like today would be great!

I still intend to furnish additional documentation in an upcoming installment (probably that will be Part Three) and prior to and/or following the extra documentation I have some open letters to certain assholes involved in this story (Miguel being among them) which I plan to publish as well – and most likely I will then seek to write some sort of a conclusion to all of this and I also suspect I will have more that I wish to say to Tim at the very end (I still love you Tim; my heart is still breaking because of what you did to me and have allowed to continue to keep happening to me…I am still hoping for you to do the right thing insofar as you are still able to under the dragged-out circumstances… I think about you all the time; I miss our friendship so much! Yet that doesn't mean that I haven't come to realize what a stupid fucking p***k you are capable of being... and I certainly hope you get it that I don't forgive you for that at all... but like I have said: Before this shit happened, I considered you a best friend, and my friendship pledge still stands.) – and all of this forthcoming publication might take place at any time: sometime this week or next week – or following my moving away from where I am now, in late December – or after I get all settled…

[* This is me quoting Tim, sort of... he'll understand it.]

Ideally I will be done with this particular blog before I begin the upcoming new year; although January 9 marks the six months vow I made to Tim and Miguel on July 9 when they staged phase one of entrapping me for false arrest…
Therefore – ideally or not – I don’t see me being done with this blog before then – and as I have stated – my protest will continue as long as New Seasons Market remains in business!
WORD!
Having made all of these statements – I refuse to let any of this interfere any more with me living my life as I choose to – which means that I shall determine my schedule as I see fit…
…I am super busy at this time and for the next few weeks especially – therefore I cannot say for certain exactly when I will fully complete this blog – only that it is still my definite intention to do so.
In summary – at this time with regards to all that I have written so far – following my publication of my grievance(s) against New Seasons Market at the Portland Indy Media site – and my distribution of that e-mail (printed on flyers etc) via community outreach – and the variations therein which I sought to publicly humiliate New Seasons Market with their own actions and words:
I gratefully learned from community feedback a whole list of unethical business practices etc pertaining to the CAPITALIST PIGS, which New Seasons Market’s owners and management truly are…
…As I disseminated these truths about New Seasons Market’s fraudulency: I came face to face with their extensive corruption when they sought to suppress me by way of fraud and force (whereupon I learned they were as evil as they were corrupt) – including but not limited to their setting me up, entrapping me, pressing false and trumped up charges against me – and their ultimate responsibility for my illegal arrest (it was a total bait and switch with the charges) for “criminal trespassing”…
I do not at all like nor particularly tolerate – the unsatisfactory grounds upon which New Seasons Market’s truly devious and wholly dishonest case against me was eventually dismissed (and is now supposedly behind me) – although I did have an opportunity to tell the judge that the charges were indeed false and my arrest was not at all legal. Perhaps because of a higher power or sheer luck: I was freed within hours of my arrest and soon after that I was relieved of any further obligations pertaining to it.
…The tremendous stress and grief resulting from that false arrest – has not been inconsequential to me by any stretch of the imagination – and as a result of that pain and suffering – I shall hold both grievance and grudge against New Seasons Market forevermore.

To be continued…


*this is the story of kim and tim* part three: god may forgive you; but i won't
(NEW SEASONS MARKET SUCKS CONT.) published on january 23, 2012





(o: i made this video :o)
quite a long time ago

...so to those of you assholes (you know who you are) who think i only just now have been radicalized: think again!...

anarchy and peace, kristin.